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New Story

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I'll do The Gifted and The Cursed first...

It was originally titled as Marina and Joas, and actually just a short drama I made at school for my English project. I then decided to add more details into it.

I still don't know what to do tho...
Should I make it a comic or not...
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Vent

2 min read
I was fixed, and broken down again.
I know it wasn't really it, but that's not what I was.
It hurts knowing that there's a piece missing from my puzzle.
But then again, I could've just make a new piece instead of waiting for someone to give me a new one.
Can't stop my tears from falling, yet can't make myself cry another drop.
I know that even though it's painful, it was for the best.

That's what I was supposed to understand...
That's what I think I am...
Still...I wish I wasn't that dangerous to stay with...
I'm just a lonely pack of bomb, ready to be found, ready to explode.

Ah, life's bittersweet, just like chocolate.

And I hate chocolate.

No really I don't like chocolate.

I'm allergic.

It's not that I hate life.... Or chocolate...

I can't help it that I'm allergic, okay? To chocolate,not to life.

No, I'm not watching a sad movie, nope.

Nope.

It's just that I accidentally ate a chocolate cake and then remember that I'm allergic.

Stupid cake.

The cake is a lie.
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It hurts

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It always hurts to let go of the one who lead you on.
It always hurts to let go of the one who lift you up.
But when they leave you to die in pain, that's what real pain is.

It's as if life had an abusive relationship with me...
One moment he's all "Hello princess, you look beautiful today" and then he goes "I'm going to send bullies to scar your face so you look ugly".
One moment he's "I'll give you someone you can hold on to, she's not like the guys you've met before", then he just "I'll make her leave you with what was left of your heart, because I don't want you to have anything".

I don't know, I think death looks more appealing to me...
... Being calm.... Not as possessive as life.... Not as abusive as life... He's not even forcing me to like him the way life does... He just invites me to his place... Where life will never be able to touch me...
... If I go with him, I can't see those who tries to hold my hand in place of her... I'll hurt those who tries to help me... And I don't want that...

But why do I want to accept death's invitation so bad?
Even breathing becomes pain for me...
I can't do anything right....
I feel like I can cut myself and bleed to death right now...
I feel like I can just jump in front of the train anytime....
I feel like I just need one more push to fall off the edge of a skyscraper...
... And there'll be no one there to grab my hand and throw away the blade...
There'll be no one there to pull me away from the train track...
There'll be no one to pull me into a hug before I jump...

... There'll be no one to glue back my glass heart...
Even if they have the strongest glue, they won't be able to put my heart back...
... It's already crushed to glitter dusts...
Nothing left of it....
Nothing....
Nothing at all...
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